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So I finally logged back in here, ended up reading over all my old posts. Rather sad watching friendships grow and fade.
However, the time is now, not then. Life has moved on and changed. I graduated from Plymouth with my medieval studies degree and moved back down to Mass. After a bit at Marshall's(and getting injured) I moved into a studio in Boston and found a part time job at a library in the town I'd just moved out of. Next year, moved to a lovely place in Brighton and got a job more easily accessible from the previous apt. I do wonder at times if I should move again, with the hopes of getting an even better job...
I have started graduate school at Simmons for my MLIS and am finishing up my second semester. At the turn of the new year, I gave up one of my jobs for sanity's sake. I love my current work immensely and classes have been going great!
Um, I have friends and gaming groups of awesome.
I discovered an unfortunate allergy to shellfish.
Still can't make deviled eggs.
Got called the energizer bunny by a cabaret girl at a burlesque.
Have gone/am going to conferences in my field.
Love life.
Love school (but hate group projects)
Have gotten much better at not perpetually apologizing due to hard work from my supervisor/coworkers/friends
Have learned ideals are lovely, life prevents them from being realistic
And so things go, I wish all well and luck to them in endeavors to come!

A post!

I love my job! So I have started working at the Public library in the town I moved from over the summer, which is funny except for in the early mornig when I actually consider the commute from an actually happening view. I'm only permanently scheduled for between 12-15 hrs a week.Except for the previous week and the next five weeks when I'm working around 24-32.5(this week)
I know the reason the insurance company for the workers comp is trying to make me feel like an idiot and a liar is so they don't have to do anything. It's not my fault I was in so much pain I was crying that whole first week and didnt know what to do. Its not my fault the company redecorated loweing everything so when the change first happened everyone who worked up there commented on how it was going to be hell on my back and last friday when I spoke to Jill about what had happened she said it was no suprise. Its not my fault the monday after I got hurt when my mom and I went to talk to them about wc and I was still barely able to walk and they told me since it hadnt been a direct accident it wasnt applicable. Its not my fault. But I'm being made to feel a victim, like it was my fault, like I should give up and go away and save them their time. And that? is wrong.
Someone responded badly to my post elsewhere where I stated I am no longer going to be putting my money or attention to Erykah Badu due to her ecent performance art, due to the fact that she knowingly and intentionalyt traumatized children (and adults) who had no idea what was going on, less by her stripping but by her pretending to get shot. in this world sadly many people know someone who was murdered in a violent act and will now have those traumatic memories reawakened, she did not take this negative affect her art might have on people into consideration but decided to makle a statemnet without providing those she involved against their will or knowledge a means of responding. They told me their tired of people forming such strong knee jerk reactions without considering both sides. alright- where is Badu's consideration? is the profit she makes from this going to go to therapy for the children you can see in the video looking horrified by what is happening? My father was shot when I was little. I was sexually abused when I was younger as well. My reaction on watching it was nauseoa and horror. yes it was a kneejerk reaction. that is what was intended by the creatior, and that is why I no longer have any respect for her as an artist. She chose an easy brutal means of drawung forth emotion and now blames those she inflicted it on for not getting it. which I consider vile
I have been thinking over what has caused my back injury and come to the conclusion of what did it. I was thinking over when I first started having an achy back regularly - not the current agonizing pain but the beginning warning pains, and have realized it happened when work redecorated the front of the store. When they lowered all our registers so instead of being able to stand upright when I typed and processed sales and returns I know need to have my back slightly bent all the time. When they moved the returns section so that we had to use lower drawers that or blocked by drawers to put the departments returns in, again requiring a great deal more bending over, especially since they are located behind the checkout registers so you cannot usually open the doors completely and pull out the drawers fully to place things in as that would inconvenience the cashier. Since they made new further inset and lower sections for the hangers to hang so if you want to get one out you need to bend and reach and if you want a pants hanger you have to do so with even more difficulty or almost kneel. While this is less inconvenient for most of the others working at the front at my height it has meant most of the time at work I’ve been partially bent over stressing my back. Which means even when I finish having this current agonizing pain treated, which is requiring me to miss work and pay a great deal for medicine, doctors visits, and the trip to the ER, I will be going back to what hurt me in the first place. This seems …problematic. And before anyone brings up workers comp. you only get that if you were directly injured on the job, as in an accidents or such, not just being slowly injured due to painful working conditions. I’m trying to figure out ways of ameliorating the damage when I go back, not that I;m at that point yet given I can still only walk a few feet at a time by myself, can only sit for a short while in a very straight chair and am spending most of the days lying flat on my back knocked out by the valium, percocet and 600mg ibuprofen.

Writer's Block: Fuzzy friend

If you could have any fictional creature from a book, film, or TV show as your pet, which one would you choose, and why?

Goji! or really Z. As that would be a lot more survivable.
....unless creature includes aliens in which case? I think its rather a given who I'd pick.
Have been busy working at Marshall's. Now at the customer Service desk (which is slowly eroding away my faith in humanity). Missing people, and still trying to get myself involved with out of work things here.
Tomorrow heading to new york until monday. Will be seeing Faust at the opera tomorrow night, and going to the sunday special on their exhibit on the Art of the Samurai. Still figuring what else to do. (although the museum of natural history, phantom of the opera, and visiting the un are probably on the list)

Writer's Block: I Can Relate

What fictional character do you most identify with?


A bit of a mix, a combination of Miki Saegusa from the Godzilla movies, Nomiko Readman from Read or Die, Azusa from Anata no Tonari ni Dareka Iru, and a couple others.
No matter what language you speak, you've probably come across words or phrases in another language that sound better than their equivalents in your native tongue. What's your favorite word or phrase in a foreign language?


Pamplemousse! It is such a more fun word than grapefruit.

Anyone interested?

When I was in high school, I used to spend a lot of time at Barnes and Noble. Some of the books I found were these really interesting books called Vampire:the masquerade. So I saw them and went "this would be really fun to play! especially these chicago chronicles!If only I knew people who were interested in this stuff....oh well maybe someday" so I ended up buying the chicago books in the hope that at some point I could use them. A few years later I ended up in college, and there was this student group called gaming club- and because of those books, I decided to join. Admittedly it took me a few years to get up the courage to do anything in club, and I never got around to using these books. Yesterday I was looking at my bookshelves, and went "huh, these are still here. hmm, lets look at these, see if I still want to keep them. la de da, *read, read, read* yeah these are really awesome, these would be really fun to run, especially since I DO know people who are interested in this stuff." And since they are what got me into gaming, it would be nice to actually get to do what I wanted to back in high school. So if anyones interested let me know. There will be some restrictions on clan and allegiances and such, so as to be able to fit things in. And we'll need to work out backstory, connections, secrets and such. but I think it could be a lot of fun.